i loved you once and i loved you twice and i love you still

i've got you underneath my fingernails and i don't know how,
you've stained yourself on my skin in cross-crossing lines
that make no sense
and i don't know what to say, i don't know
what to do when i'm around you.

baby, baby i loved you once and i loved you twice and i love you still,
but you've got your hair falling in your eyes
and i don't think that you can see me because i've got
my heart open and my eyes are shining and i can't seem to speak
when you laugh and sit down next to me.

you've got that smile that makes my heart stop everytime, that

look that you make when you look my way never fails

to leave me breathless and i think

that i just might be falling more in love with you than last time

because i loved you for so many innocent years,

but i gave up on you because how could someone beautiful

love back someone ugly like me?

baby, baby i loved you once and i loved you twice and i love you still,

i used to watch you run like the wind around dirt tracks

and when your hair was flipped to the side and your eyes were shining

i thought that maybe, just maybe

you could see me, but you couldn't because back then i was invisible.

perfection does not exist in this world, but baby

you come pretty damn close

with those young eyes and wide smiles and the way you

play that guitar makes me wonder if maybe

you could hold me like that someday, if maybe

you could look at me with such utter concentration and love

so i could tell you that all this time i've been falling in love with you.

baby, baby i loved you once and i loved you twice and i love you still,

but i'm too afraid of cliches to brush the hair out of your eyes

and to look you in the face and ask you if maybe, just maybe

you can finally see me.
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i wrote this about this guy that i used to like in middle school and then decided freshmen year that i didn't have a chance and moved on and now [as a junior] have begun to like again, the only difference this time is that now we are friends and i might actually have a chance.

okay, so i'm going to see 'The Importance of Being Earnest' with my friend Sarah in like 10 minutes so i have to go. hope you guys have all been having a wonderful week!!