nothing more than nothing

& i just want to be called beautiful,

to be compared to the stars & the sea & the first snowfall.

i just want to feel like i'm not nothing,

that maybe i'm a little bit of something

& not just some cluster of meaningless energy

being tossed around in the breeze.

i just want someone to call me beautiful

& tell me that i matter,

maybe then i won't be cutting through these stitches

& picking at these cracks in my soul

because i just can't see myself as any more than nothing

& anything less that nonexistant.

but then again,

i'm not beautiful.
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i have low self confidence. for the rest of the week i'm just going to be posting a poem and maybe a little explanation if i feel like it is needed because i'm trying to post more. :)