finally together

wearing a faded, well worn hat, that i stole from you this morning

and a flannel shirt that i bought last year and for some reason

i feel strangly beautiful for the first time in forever.

 

and when i walked downstairs you smiled, you saw

your hat still on my head and my smile and it was like i was 6

again and we were close again and there was no pain, no tension

between us, like the past was the present

and you loved me again

[not like you don't now, but sometimes it feels as though...

well you know.]

 

for the first time in a long time i felt connected to you again, i felt

like falling into your arms and giving you a great bear hug

while we make cheese burgers together out on the deck, shivering

because it is cold and the wind is whipping around us, but the grill

is keeping us at least semi warm

and i want it to be summer and i want it to be forever

because this moment in time is one i have long for, have wished for

late at night after we would fight and i would cry myself to sleep.

 

for the first time in a long time i was close to my daddy again

and i don't ever want it to end.