tremble

i used to be able to fly, soar

up into the sky and be free,

 

but then i fell.

 

hard.

 

now i'm to afraid to take that jump that's really more of a

small, little step over a semi large crack in the pavement

filled with a pool of water from the tears i rained down

on it as i shivered, trembled with fear

because once i fell i became afraid of falling again.

 

and it's cold and i'm shaking, but i can't tell

if it's from fear or from the cold that's piercing my bones, shattering

them like they did when i fell and i wonder if maybe

i'm just remembering what it was like on that day

when i was soaring high and i hit a small, barely noticeable

bump in the air drafts and i plummeted

down

down

down,

screaming all of the way but nobody could hear me

as i fell, nobody was there to catch me and so i

shattered.

 

i broke into a million tiny pieces and it took

a whole year of sterile hospital rooms and expensive bills

to fix me again, but then i found out that it was useless, it was all nothing,

when i stood looking down at that small crack in the pavement

and i found myself unable to make that jump that was more like

a semi large step, but was so close to flying

that i trembled.