It seems like it has been forever since my fingers
flew across the keyboard letters,
bringing a true master piece into existance.
It's been so very long since I let my thoughts play out
onto a new page and then share it to the world,
it has been so long.
I have written so many words in the month of December
and it seems as though I may never write again,
but you can never,
lose something that is such a great part of you
that it is what gets you through boring days and tough times.
It has been so long since I embraced the words,
struggling to get out,
burning to get out,
as I have once said in a poem that I wrote
what seems like ages ago.
In only a month I am different now,
a writer who has accomplished NaNoWriMo her first time
and a bisexual teen who has come out to her friends.
In only a month I have changed from a shy girl
who hid my feelings for fear that I would be trampled
and broken all over again,
to a girl who isn't afraid to be herself
and will gladly say what's on her mind.
I can change so much in such a short time,
but it seems as though it is not appropriately measured
because I measure my progress
through the change in the flow and the words
of my writing.
It has been so long since I poured my heart onto a page
for a total stranger to read,
but there is a comfort in it.
so there is a writing piece (finally)! :)
how were your Christmases this year? mine was pretty great because it was also marking 3 weeks since i last cut myself :) i got some cool stuff and i got to see myself in published form!!
it was pretty exciting and right now i am reading it (it is my nano novel from this year) it isn't sold to the public, its just a proof copy and i have the only copy that will ever be made and sold sorry! maybe next year i will open it up to the general public. i also got this really cool caligraphy set from my almost boyfriend (if he doesn't ask me out in the next month i am going to go out with Lindsay - yes a girl, i am bisexual)
much love all!