Ode to Molloy by Samuel Beckett

<dedicated to Molloy by Samuel Beckett - my english project>

I was told that you were challenging and that I wasn't ready,

but I didn't listen and when I was given an extension to change books

I stuck with you because the language was beautifully chaotic

and reminded me a little bit about myself.

I thought that maybe I would learn about myself

by reading this book that every teacher said I was too young for

and I wanted the challenge

that books stopped presenting to me when I turned 6

and read chapter books without pictures that were hundreds of pages long.

oh how wrong I was.

At first the going wasn't easy,

but not hard,

it was an experience and I loved the ways the words twisted around me

and made my mind swirl

unlike any other book that I have ever read.

And then deadlines began to draw near and I couldn't keep up

with the time that I had left,

I wanted to savor the words as I read them

and now I only have 4 days left and I'm not even half way through,

my mind can't keep up with the words that are being thrown at me

and I think that I might literally die

because of the effort that I am putting into this one book.

You have taught me so much,

more than any other book I have read,

but I really wish that I could go back and read a different book

because I have to admit that my teacher was right,

I'm not ready for this book,

at least under a deadline.

I know that I could read you if I had a year,

but a month wasn't nearly enough.

You have changed my way of thinking,

but I regret choosing to read you for this assignment.

The thoughts you present me make my mind swirl

and I don't know if I can function anymore.

I do have to say though;

if I do die reading you,

at least I tried and even a few pages were enough

to make me rethink everything I have ever thought.

Thanks for the learning and the torture,

you have taught me much,

but I wouldn't recommending reading you in only a month.

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this is dedicated to Molloy a novel by the writer Samuel Beckett which I had to read for an english project. I regret that decision everyday :) but it was totally worth it in the end because it was a good book ♥

~AT