Wednesday, July 14, 2010


Dear God,

Give me the strength,
the strength
to get rid of this addiction;
razor blades slicing pale skin,
crafted by your
ever-capable hands.

Help me fight through
this day and the next,
help my to deny the devil's taunts and promises,
all so tempting,
and let me learn to love and trust
once again.

Speak through me to others,
struggling and fighting
to find stable ground,
to find light in this world of darkness,
use me to help spread Your word.

But most of all,
lead me and guide me in this world,
because now that I've found You
I can't seem to get enough
and can't seem to stop smiling
and shouting out about Your glory.

Thank You 
i haven't written in awhile because i was at a christian youth conference that my parents made me go to so that maybe i could get better. i did. sorta. i haven't cut for almost a week which sounds little, but for me is a big deal and i have accepted Jesus into my heart and now have a good relationship with God and pray whenever i get the urge to cut. i've also started eating again and feel soo much better about a lot of stuff. i wrote this poem when i got back on sunday (it was monday-sunday in louisville, kentucky) totally worth it and i can't wait for when it happens again in 2013 (it happens every 3 years)

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