wearing a faded, well worn hat, that i stole from you this morning
and a flannel shirt that i bought last year and for some reason
i feel strangly beautiful for the first time in forever.
and when i walked downstairs you smiled, you saw
your hat still on my head and my smile and it was like i was 6
again and we were close again and there was no pain, no tension
between us, like the past was the present
and you loved me again
[not like you don't now, but sometimes it feels as though...
well you know.]
for the first time in a long time i felt connected to you again, i felt
like falling into your arms and giving you a great bear hug
while we make cheese burgers together out on the deck, shivering
because it is cold and the wind is whipping around us, but the grill
is keeping us at least semi warm
and i want it to be summer and i want it to be forever
because this moment in time is one i have long for, have wished for
late at night after we would fight and i would cry myself to sleep.
for the first time in a long time i was close to my daddy again
and i don't ever want it to end.